Wednesday, January 24, 2007
went to meet ainsley ytd. caught the gridiron gang starring the rock. omg. the rock is like the ultimate one.... so yummy! (: an inspirational show, smth like coach carter, but with more cute guys. shrugs. ... DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE TO GET CHICKEN LITTLE STUFFS!? SCREAMS. i've been trying every damn place -- mini toons. more than words, some soft toy shops whatever their names are, toys'rus.... and the list goes on; but nope, they don't have.had the FIT bbq last night. (: headed down to the oh so familiar place with a mixture of bittersweet feelings. it felt so right, yet again, it felt so distant. and as you look around you at each and every place in CDANS, a little memory here and there just pops by. you smile, really, because the sweetness hasn't yet faded. anyways, met up with the guys who did first camp with me. they're really crazy. as in literally, unbelievably crazy. and for that instant they actually make you forget about the whole world out there that's hasty and stinging. but then as you look at each and everyone again, closely this time, you see that behind that fun loving expressions, the anxiety is there. so much worries, stress, things that they want to share but yet they can't. no, it's not a facade. it's an escape. then we all say our goodbyes. and i wonder, really, when i'm going to see them all again. just exactly how i felt when the first camp ended. went back with cheryl. i love that lady. (: really. kisses! i shall see you very soon darling. anyways, going out to club with andrea today. and a few other guys. she's going to sleepover, then we're heading to sentosa to tan tomorrow! everybody please pray it doesn't rain! ...i'm in a position where i'm quite calm and happy. i need everyone to understand. so please don't rush me or push me into doing anything which will affect my spirits. if things can just remain like this for awhile. then i can find myself, gather and reflect on my thoughts and then hope for the best after i've made my choice. so to everyone out there, give me my space okay. and to YU... thank yu, i appreciate your help. and your understanding. and i love yu! (: and to you. you're so fucking superficial. after whatever that happened you're trying to make it up with a dinner? a damn dinner? you must be joking. so continue staying out of my way, out of my life.
- everything's just temporary;
9:02 AM
